mostly on mother tongue
one overly confessional post, lol. my relationship with hungary is utterly hilarious in so many ways. most of all, despite being born and raised there, i’ve never felt at home for even a moment. this might sound disrespectful and ungrateful, but it’s the truth. for a brief period, i did feel connected to budapest, though that had far more to do with friends and the music scene there than the city itself, even if it remains one of my favourite metropolises.
ultimately, the only place i can truly call home is my mother tongue, and because it isn’t bound to any physical space, it has lately begun to offer me a sense of freedom rather than alienation.
and also i can’t help thinking i made a questionable decision when i moved back to hungary seven years ago –heartbroken, convinced that being there for your family is always the right thing to do.
reset on the way. :-)
hope april brings the end of the system in the country.
in the air: Appletree - Erykah Badu